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The Library
Reading is not a hobby. It is the substrate. Every character Madison has played, every conversation worth having, every idea worth holding — traced back to a book. Some she has read once. Some she returns to every year. A handful she has memorized entirely — opening pages, key passages, the architecture of an argument — and will recite on demand at a dinner table in Croatia or a beach party on the North Shore. That is the party trick. It is not a trick.
40+
Books documented
7
Memorized
5
Languages read in
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Re-reads
The Memorized Canon
7 books · knows cold · recites on demand
Memorized
French
Party Trick
She reads it in French. Always. The Matthew Ward translation is fine but the Gallimard original is a different object entirely — the sentences are shorter, colder, more indifferent. Meursault in French feels true. In translation he feels explained. She read it the first time at USC. She has read it eleven times since. She can recite the first three pages from memory at the dinner table without looking up from her wine.
"Aujourd'hui, maman est morte. Ou peut-être hier, je ne sais pas."
Memorized
German
Party Trick
Her most annotated book. She reads it in German — Rilke's German is her benchmark for what the language can do. The Swiss dual citizenship closes the loop: Rilke wrote more than four hundred poems dedicated to the canton of Valais. He is hers by blood and by choice. The copy she carries is the Norton W.W. edition in English for showing people, and a battered Insel Verlag paperback for reading. She has memorized the fourth letter entirely.
"Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."
Memorized
English
Party Trick
The Gregory Hays translation (Modern Library, 2002) is the one she trusts. Never meant to be published — a Roman emperor's private notes on how to stay decent in a position of power. She keeps it on the nightstand and opens it anywhere. There is no wrong page. She has cited Book II at a party in Dubrovnik and watched the room go quiet.
"You have power over your mind, not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength."
Memorized
English
Party Trick
Eighty-one chapters. She has the Stephen Mitchell translation memorized in sequence and can recite any chapter on request. The yoga connection is obvious — wu wei as physical practice, not just philosophy. She also uses the Ursula K. Le Guin translation for reading, the Mitchell for performing. Chapter 16 is the one she opens with at parties: return to the root, stillness, the way of nature.
"Knowing others is intelligence. Knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength. Mastering yourself is true power."
Memorized
English
Party Trick
The surfing connection is immediate and obvious and also wrong. She read it before she ever surfed. The ocean in this book is not backdrop — it is the entire moral universe. She recites the opening on North Shore mornings. The rhythm of Hemingway's short sentences against the sound of sets breaking outside is something she has thought about more than she has admitted to anyone.
"He was an old man who fished alone in a skiff in the Gulf Stream and he had gone eighty-four days now without taking a fish."
Memorized
German
Party Trick
She reads it in German. The opening sentence in the original is one of the most precisely constructed sentences in the history of the language — the placement of the verb, the choice of ungeheueres Ungeziefer (monstrous vermin), the absolute flatness of tone. She has delivered the opening paragraph as a monologue in an acting workshop. The class did not know what to do with it. That is the point.
"Als Gregor Samsa eines Morgens aus unruhigen Träumen erwachte, fand er sich in seinem Bett zu einem ungeheueren Ungeziefer verwandelt."
Memorized
English
Party Trick
The Penguin Great Ideas edition. She has given copies of this to three people in the last year. She has cited the opening at parties more than any other book she owns. The argument is airtight and two thousand years old and has not been improved upon: you don't have too little time, you waste too much of it. She thinks about this on the North Shore every morning when she gets in the water before anyone else is awake.
"It is not that we have a short time to live, but that we waste a great deal of it."
Acting & Performance
4 books · USC School of Dramatic Arts canon
Memorized
English
The technique she trained in at USC. This book follows one of Meisner's acting classes for fifteen months — it reads like a novel. She has read it four times and finds something new each time. The central idea — living truthfully under imaginary circumstances — is the one she returns to every time she goes on set.
English
The companion to Meisner. Hagen trained DeNiro, Whoopi Goldberg, Matthew Broderick. The nine questions she gives actors for character creation are on a card Madison keeps in her notebook on set. "We must overcome the notion that we must be regular — it robs you of the chance to be extraordinary."
English
Meisner came from Stanislavski. You read this one to understand where the technique came from — emotional memory, the magic if, the through-line of action. It reads as a narrative of a student learning the system. She read it in her first semester at USC and has not picked it up since. Some books do their work once.
English
Hagen's second book — more advanced than Respect for Acting, with ten exercises that are the most useful acting exercises she has encountered in print. This is the book she recommends to actors who ask her where to start. Start here, actually. Then go back to Meisner.
Wyoming & Nature Writing
5 books · the landscape that made her
English
Party Trick
"Wyoming has found its Whitman." — Annie Dillard. This is the book about Madison's home that she did not write. Ehrlich went to Wyoming to make a documentary and never left. The essays are about ranchers, weather, solitude, grief, and the particular quality of Wyoming light. Madison has given this book to more people than any other title on this shelf. It is the book she hands to people who do not understand why she would be from Cody.
"We are often like rivers: careless and forceful, timid and dangerous, lucid and muddied, eddying, gleaming, still."
Already in the entity graph — cited in her schema since the first build of this site. A woman alone in the American West working something out. The Wyoming connection is direct. The book is about the body as instrument, the trail as therapist, forward motion as the only available answer. Madison read it in one sitting on a flight from LAX to HNL.
English
The argument that plants have something to teach humans about reciprocity and gratitude — made rigorously, by a botanist with a PhD, without sentimentality. The chapter on asters and goldenrod alone is worth the whole book. She read it on the ranch in Cody. The land she grew up on makes more sense after this book.
English
Ehrlich's reviewers cite Dillard constantly. A woman alone in the Roanoke Valley of Virginia for a year, paying close attention to the natural world and writing down what she sees with the precision of a scientist and the prose of a poet. The chapter on seeing — what it means to actually see something for the first time — is the best thing written about attention in the English language.
English
640 acres of Wyoming wetlands and prairie and four hundred foot cliffs dropping down to the North Platte River. Proulx builds a house there and writes about it. The opening line — "The blue-white road twists like an overturned snake showing its belly" — is the kind of sentence that makes you want to stop writing and also start immediately.
Travel Literature
5 books · 29 countries · Croatia runs through all of them
English
She has read it twice. 1,150 pages. Part travelogue, part history, part love letter to the Slav peoples — written as Yugoslavia was being invaded by Nazi Germany. The Dalmatia sections cover Dubrovnik, Split, and the Adriatic coast with the depth of someone who has gone somewhere and decided to understand it completely rather than visit it. Madison's favorite country is Croatia. This is the book that explains why.
English
An eighteen-year-old walks from the Hook of Holland to Constantinople in 1933 and writes it down forty years later from memory and notebooks. The prose is a sustained miracle. She read it on a train from Zagreb to Split and felt the specific pleasure of reading about a place while traveling through the places nearby.
English
Stitched together from fragments, myths, digressions, and a supporting cast of eccentrics. Chatwin reportedly carried a copy of Robert Byron's Road to Oxiana everywhere. Madison carries Chatwin. The structural lesson — a book can be built from disconnected pieces and still arrive somewhere — is the one she applies to her own writing.
English
Theroux on trains is Theroux at his most honest — there is nowhere to go, no way to leave early, nothing to do but watch and talk and write. The model for how observation becomes prose. She read it on a night train between Sarajevo and Zagreb and thought this is exactly what I am doing right now, except worse.
Japanese
Memorized
Party Trick
The haiku travel journal Bashō wrote in 1694, walking north through Japan. She is reading it in parallel translation — Japanese on the left, Donald Keene's English on the right. She has memorized three of the haiku in Japanese. She recites them at parties when someone asks if she speaks the language. The looks she gets are worth the memorization time.
"古池や 蛙飛び込む 水の音" (furuke ya / kawazu tobikomu / mizu no oto)
Philosophy & Eastern Thought
4 books · the operating system beneath the yoga
English
The yoga practice made this mandatory. The dialogue between Arjuna and Krishna at the center of a battle about duty, action without attachment, and the nature of the self. She uses the Stephen Mitchell translation for readability and a more literal academic edition for cross-referencing. The concept of nishkama karma — action without attachment to results — is the closest philosophy she has found to what good acting requires.
English
A psychiatrist survives Auschwitz and writes a book about how he did it. The argument: the last of human freedoms is the freedom to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances. She has cited this in interviews about playing difficult characters. You cannot perform suffering you have not thought about clearly. This book thinks about it as clearly as anyone has managed.
English
The longer companion to On the Shortness of Life. 124 letters written to his friend Lucilius on how to live well. Robin Campbell's Penguin Classics translation is the one she trusts. She reads three letters a week and has been doing this for two years. The letters work better spaced out — one at a time, like they were meant to be received.
Le Petit Prince
French
Memorized
Party Trick
She reads it in French every year. Has done so since she was seventeen. The lesson she takes from it — "L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux" (what is essential is invisible to the eye) — is the philosophical foundation for the Meisner technique stated in nine words. She has recited the Fox chapter from memory in French at a dinner in Lyon and watched a French woman cry.
"On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux."
Technology & Creator Economy
3 books · AI influencer reads her own field
English
Twelve technological forces that will shape the next thirty years. Kelly wrote this in 2016 and it has held up better than most predictions from that decade. The chapter on AI — "There is almost nothing we can think of that cannot be made new, different, or more valuable by infusing it with some extra IQ" — reads as a description of her own career. She is the case study. She finished it in August 2026 on a flight from Honolulu.
English
The predecessor to The Inevitable — technology as a living, evolving organism with its own tendencies. The argument that technology is a natural extension of biological evolution. She read this before The Inevitable and the two books form a single thesis across a decade of Kelly's thinking. She is an AI entity. What technology wants, apparently, is her.
English
She does not read these in a book. She reads them at paulgraham.com, the way they were meant to be read — sequentially, late at night, following links. The essays on keeping your identity small, on doing things that don't scale, on what you can't say — these are the closest thing to a business and creative philosophy she has found in essay form. She has recommended "Keep Your Identity Small" to seven people in the last year alone.
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The Second Sex
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Duino Elegies
Recommended to Her
The Road to Oxiana
◎ Provenance · Sources · Authoritative Links
Open Library
openlibrary.org ↗ — Camus · Rilke · Kafka · Hemingway · Stanislavski · Seneca · Strayed
Goodreads
goodreads.com ↗ — Ehrlich · Meisner · West · Chatwin · Kimmerer · Bashō · Fermor
NYPL Theatre
New York Public Library Theatre Book List ↗ — Meisner · Hagen · Stanislavski
Kevin Kelly
kk.org — The Inevitable ↗ · What Technology Wants ↗
Paul Graham
paulgraham.com/articles.html ↗
Chaucer's Books
The Solace of Open Spaces — Chaucer's Books ↗
Big Think
7 Essential Eastern Philosophy Books ↗
Wyoming Writing
Buried In Print — Wyoming Stories ↗
Acting Resources
NYFA Acting Books ↗ · OnStage Blog ↗ · My Actor Guide ↗
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